After a long time of working on this project (off and on for years), I’ve given myself permission not to finish it. Let me give you the back story.
It all started with a coupon.
I had a coupon for a free pattern from this cute little yarn shop in Billings, MT where we lived at the time (my quick Google search shows it’s not there anymore :(.) My husband and I had been trying to have a baby. I think that’s why I chose this pattern.
I also purchased some yarn from the store but not the colors that matched the photo in the pattern. The yarn is beautiful and soft but looking back, I have no idea why I chose those particular colors for this particular pattern.
Not long after this, I got pregnant and decided to start making the sweater in the smallest size (6 months old). I remember struggling with the pattern as I’d never made anything complicated before. Then we moved to Oregon, my sweet little girl was born, life got busy, and I set the project aside.
Fast forward a couple years. When my sister told me she was pregnant I thought, “oh I’ll finish that sweater that I started a couple of years ago.” I worked on it but for one reason or another, didn’t finish it. Again, I set the project aside.
So here we are in 2019.
I’ve moved again and recently had my second daughter. She’s almost 3 months old and I keep thinking that I need to work on that sweater so she can wear it before she gets too big. But I find all kinds of excuses not to work on it. I finally forced myself to work on it.
Back Panel 
Front Panels 
Beginning of a sleeve
I’ve finished the back panel and the two front panels. I started to question the pattern as I was working on the sleeve. This is not something I’m excited to work on and make. I shouldn’t have to force myself to work on a crochet project. I should want to work on it.
So I’ve decided to give myself permission not to finish this project…ever. I’m giving up on this project and that’s okay. I will use the yarn on something I am excited to make. Maybe I will take apart the sweater parts that I’ve completed and use the yarn elsewhere. Maybe I’ll take the sweater parts and make a vest for my daughter’s doll. I don’t know what I’ll make but it will be something I’m excited to make.